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When is Enough, Enough?

22 Jan

When you are pursuing a career for which there is always something to do, when do you know you are doing enough?

For the most part, I would say I am confident, focused, driven and determined when it comes to being an actor. However, once in a while I have a mini meltdown. Hence, last night. In one torrential downpour (kind of like the one we are experiencing this very moment in LA) all of my doubts, fears and frustrations came crashing down on me. It all felt so fruitless. I suddenly felt as though I have accomplished nothing. Had nothing to show for all the blood, sweat and tears I have put into this chosen career. What am I doing? What is the point? It’s so not fair! I should have done this, and this and this by now!

But, in the midst of my pseudo panic attack, I never said I give up. I never said I didn’t want to do this anymore. Those tears were just the growing pains of pursuing acting. It comes with the territory; I am totally okay with that. I am an actor, after all, so let the emotions flow…

Today, a new day, I feel better, clear-headed and maybe even more driven. I will continue to do what I can each day. And for me, that is enough.

Fear: He’s a pesky little guy…

5 Jan

I’m scared.

Just because I’ve decided to pursue acting, does not mean that I’m not afraid of it. Very, very afraid. But I believe most people starting out in their careers, whatever those may be, have fears around it. Going after what you want can be a scary thing. And that’s ok! It’s healthy to have these feelings. In fact, I think it’s an important part of the beginning stages.

These are some of my fears around acting:

  • Will I ever become a successful actor?
  • Will I ever make a living off of acting?
  • Am I attractive enough?
  • Am I good enough?
  • Am I talented at all?
  • Is my dream really a career or is it actually a hobby?
  • Am I wasting my time?
  • Are people judging me, as just another actor in LA who’ll never make it?
  • Can I survive this lifestyle?

Some days are better than others. Sometimes I will feel so confident and know that no matter what I will achieve success. And other times all these fears creep in. But no matter how often I feel afraid, I never doubt my dream.

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What are your fears?

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