Remember when I said, even when you make it you don’t make it? Well, I didn’t make it.
After being strung along for about THREE months, I finally got
official word that my scene just wasn’t going to make the cut in an
indie film I had got cast in. Due to budget restrictions, apparently,
what was going to be a feature length was reduced back to a short which
simply didn’t have room for little ‘ol me.
Yes, I’m bummed– the crew seemed cool and the bit part was fun– but I
kind of had this feeling from the beginning so I can’t say I am
surprised. It’s not like I was holding my breath or anything. I know
that you have to keep swimming along, taking up every opportunity handed
to you because, sometimes, Even When You Make It, You Don’t Make It.
Here are some interesting articles that
have been floating around the web lately. I find they relate to my
current situation of figuring out what I want to do within the realm of
acting/theater/film and the importance of it all to me.
NY Times article on why theater is still relevant today amidst the Youtube-saturated culture we now live in.
article on how DIY music labels have branched out to DIY films, making
filmmaking even more accessible to the low-budge production teams.
interesting (albeit long) article about the
scariness/excitedness/craziness that is the 20s and the recent shifting
timetable for adulthood.
with the topic of these crazy, excited and uncertain 20-somethings, this
Huffington Post article discusses how this generation of hipsters can
save the dying art form.
article on the changing atmosphere of LA theater from showcase for the
actor’s sake to true story telling for the artist’s sake.
So, I got the job and the part…
now what!? Well, before I begin completely freaking out, I have to
remind myself to Celebrate! Yay! This is what I strive for– so, yay! go
Ok, now freak out. Both shows occur in October, so for about a month I
will be working on both simultaneously, which is, yeah, insane. But
what am I going to do? Turn down an opportunity I’ve worked so hard to
get? HELL no. I can make it work. If I can make it work, then why would I
not do them both?
This is further proof that the more you put yourself out there, the
higher the return. Even if these two opportunities are not directly
related, it is no coincidence that I got them both. That’s the way the
world works. I truly believe that you get what you put out. Which is why
it is so vitally important to always be working on something, always submitting to breakdowns, always do those favors for your actor/producer/director friends– you never know where any of it will take you.
Like I mentioned in a post a few weeks ago (My Inbox) it
is so important to celebrate every little victory we get along the way.
(If we don’t, I’d imagine we’d go insane– constantly feeling like we’re
getting nowhere and that life sucks).
On the drive to an audition this morning I realized that the
auditions I am driving to are slowly but surely becoming more and more…
what’s the word I’m looking for… high profile? I was thinking about it,
and the last 3 commercial auditions I’ve got were for Nike, Wells Fargo
and Ray Ban. I did not get these kinds of auditions right off the bat,
and I have to remember (when I’m down and out about not getting enough
auditions, or not booking, etc) that this is progress. Getting these kinds of auditions– even if they’re not every day– is success. It is a victory!
And I’m sure, somewhere down the line, I’ll be writing a post
referring back to this one and how “now I’m getting national auditions
all the time”, or “now I’m booking commercials” and that will be just as
much a victory as the one I am celebrating today.